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Hello everyone ~  this is my first post after 5 years. i finally graduated!!!~ Bachelor of Chemical Engineering with honours. 5 years have been really tough for me. study, frisbee.. main game. relationships n stuff.  its okay we move on to the next phase of life, which is the working life!

Baru je grad sebulan 5/5/2020. dengan virus covid19 ni, semua final exam digantikan dengan  extended assignment. sedih berakhir cemni, tak end dengan kawan. dahla last haritu sebelum start PKP, aku marah dekat thir aishah n ina. sebab diorang tak nak or tak boleh nak tolong aku record video sebelum balik rumah untuk PKP. then last2 aku balik dengan An the next few days. Hahah. tapi dah mintak maaf dah pun haritu, nanges2 kat wasep.  tak apalah. ada rezeki jumpa lagi diorang. 

So aku pun start streaming haritu January 2020 tapi sekejap je sampai bulan 3. tu pun jarang2. tapi sebab musim PKP haritu aku start balik lepas habis final exam. kiranya dah sebulan dah la aku stream. bolehlahhh dari tak buat apa kan. time ni tak cari kerja lagi.

But now aku rasa sebulan tu dah cukup lama dah untuk relax. so now masa untuk cari kerja pulak. thanks to Arif also. dia lah yang dok scold me about my career path. the thing is, i also dont know what i want in life. maybe i just want love and happiness, and also money. sekarang ni macam tak clear lagi nak apa, but i dont mind jadi apa pun as long as i feel thats enough for me, and cukup untuk tolong family and simpanan. tapi tengoklah rezeki aku dekat mana. 

I'm so thankful that I have Arif by my side. dia lah yang selalu ingatkan aku pasal important things like this that I take lightly. for all the things that i have done for the past month, rasa macam i was so selfish. dengan keadaan sekarang, i only think of myself. jahat kan? but now aku dah sedar. i have to think about my family as well. i wanna help them. i want to help myself too. at least, tak jadi burden. 

anyways, i think thats all for today. i just feel like i need to write to express my feelings. not that i dont have Arif to share with, its just that what im writing right now is what im feeling rn. will be writing again soon, if i have the time.