Diary Internet Saya :)

Hi! This is me testing blogger app on my phone :) oh! I just upgraded my phone from iPhone 7+ to S21 :) it's definitely an upgrade from me!!! Loving this amoled screen!! And other features as well.

I'm not sure why i haven't been blogging for the past years? It's so therapeutic. Maybe sebab sekarang dah kerja, dah banyak responsibilities, and sekarang baru sedar kepentingan mental health. Especially during this pandemic. 

Kalau sebelum ni kalau kita stress, boleh turun main frisbee dengan kawan, boleh keluar dengan kawan... sekarang ni kena fikir cara sendiri je untuk luahkan perasaan. I mean, luahkan perasaan dekat bf, kawan tu benda biasa. Cuma bila kita tulis ni, dia macam kita luahkan perasaan kt diri kita, and nanti bila dah tua nanti boleh baca balik, "ohhh aku ingat lagi time ni" hahaah! At least 1 post per week, i think okay untuk summarise the week macam mana i time tu. (Semangat pulak tetiba rasa nak menulis hahaah)

Anyways.... i akan cerita banyak lagi lah on the next post. Maybe akan cerita more about my work etc.

See youuu, ttyl.

Hi semua! apa khabar? harini 10/8/2021. Salam maal hijrah semua :)

Lately things has been really tiring. Dengan covid 19 yang daily cases more than 20,000. dengan dok baca berita kematian hari hari... Semalam Siti Sarah meninggal dunia. Al-fatihah. rasa sedih walaupun kita tak kenal dia personally, because I know she's a nice person. I'm so sad when people lost their loved ones, because I know how it feels like, and I just wish other people won't experience it. But, siapa je kita sebenarnya. We are just normal human beings, yang masing2 ada lifespan sendiri. 

Bukan tu je, kita ni yang dok rumah pun stress dengan kerja, duit, dengan masalah macam2. Some of us ada lagi yang susah, takde makanan, takde kerja. But i know kita ni yang ada rumah, ada tempat tidur, ada tempat makan pun rasa penat. It's okay, your emotions are valid. We are all tired. We want this Covid19 Pandemic to end.

I hope you guys keep my dad in your prayers, sebab dia sekarang ada masalah jantung, a few months ago asyik dok keluar masuk hospital sebab dia punya jantung tersumbat. I just pray things will get better over time. sekarang ni dok pujuk dia amik vaccine. I dah complete 2 dose,  adik i pun dah, tinggal kakak I je untuk 2nd dose. But my dad tak ready nak ambil lagi. Hmmm.

Kalau pasal kerja pulak, last week I had a mental breakdown about work hahaha. Things have been rough, but yeah, i'm sure, when a door closes, another door will open for you. I'm sure I am on the right path. 

I have this mutual friend that is successful doing his job, so I would like to give myself a try to follow his steps. You know the thing about life is that you don't know what you're doing is right or suitable for you. You just have to try. and that's what I'm doing right now. I don't know if this new job will suit me, but it will hurt me even more if I don't give it a try.  

I hope you guys stay safe during this pandemic. If you feel tired, sad, try to talk to your family/friends. Ease the burden in your heart. I will try to keep myself sane by writing on this blog more hahah.

See you on the next post! <3 xoxo.

I pray that we'll be together till the end of time.

hi ^^ its monday today. which means sunday is yesterday. and saturday is the day before that.

spent my weekend with my boyfriend. we went out and eat ramen saerockya dekat area petaling jaya :) i naik lrt pegi dekat dia and dia ambil i. mula mula masuk kete be like:

"kita nak gi mana"

"gi makan ramen"

"bukak ke?"

"kalau tak bukak kita makan nandos!"

"ish takmau lah!"

hahhah arif knows how much i love nandos sampai dia bosan dah dengan nandos asyik2 pegi nandos je. i rasa hritu i suggest nak gi nandos pastu dia taknak gi pastu dia nak tebus balik time tu hahaha. but yeah i tak de mood nak makan nandos time tu sebab sebelum jumpa dia i makan maggi kari.

so dalam nak dekat pukul 8 tu dah sampai kat ramen tu. kena isi nama, isi temperature.. biasalah PKPP kan. banyak procedure. sementara tunggu tu kitaorang main yang tunding jari tu. tau tak game tu?

kiranya game macam contoh nya i tunding jari ke atas, arif kene react cepat untuk pusing lawan arah yang i tunding jari. contohnya i tunding jari ke atas, arif pusing kepala ke kiri. macam tu la gamenya.

lepastu i buat la kat dia and dia menang first round. then dia buat kat i pulak, dia tunjuk atas tapi i ikut atas. hahaha i yang noob sbnrnya. dahla dia guna jari lain xd.

then dah masuk tu kitaorang masuk and makan. i order yang shoyu punya.. arif order yang first apa tah i tak ingat. tapi sedap je kitaorang punya. kuah nak dekat sama. lepastu sampai plak makanan mcm karipap. i lupa apa nama dia tapi centu jelah.

Hello everyone ~  this is my first post after 5 years. i finally graduated!!!~ Bachelor of Chemical Engineering with honours. 5 years have been really tough for me. study, frisbee.. main game. relationships n stuff.  its okay we move on to the next phase of life, which is the working life!

Baru je grad sebulan 5/5/2020. dengan virus covid19 ni, semua final exam digantikan dengan  extended assignment. sedih berakhir cemni, tak end dengan kawan. dahla last haritu sebelum start PKP, aku marah dekat thir aishah n ina. sebab diorang tak nak or tak boleh nak tolong aku record video sebelum balik rumah untuk PKP. then last2 aku balik dengan An the next few days. Hahah. tapi dah mintak maaf dah pun haritu, nanges2 kat wasep.  tak apalah. ada rezeki jumpa lagi diorang. 

So aku pun start streaming haritu January 2020 tapi sekejap je sampai bulan 3. tu pun jarang2. tapi sebab musim PKP haritu aku start balik lepas habis final exam. kiranya dah sebulan dah la aku stream. bolehlahhh dari tak buat apa kan. time ni tak cari kerja lagi.

But now aku rasa sebulan tu dah cukup lama dah untuk relax. so now masa untuk cari kerja pulak. thanks to Arif also. dia lah yang dok scold me about my career path. the thing is, i also dont know what i want in life. maybe i just want love and happiness, and also money. sekarang ni macam tak clear lagi nak apa, but i dont mind jadi apa pun as long as i feel thats enough for me, and cukup untuk tolong family and simpanan. tapi tengoklah rezeki aku dekat mana. 

I'm so thankful that I have Arif by my side. dia lah yang selalu ingatkan aku pasal important things like this that I take lightly. for all the things that i have done for the past month, rasa macam i was so selfish. dengan keadaan sekarang, i only think of myself. jahat kan? but now aku dah sedar. i have to think about my family as well. i wanna help them. i want to help myself too. at least, tak jadi burden. 

anyways, i think thats all for today. i just feel like i need to write to express my feelings. not that i dont have Arif to share with, its just that what im writing right now is what im feeling rn. will be writing again soon, if i have the time. 

Apa apa pun kene kuatkan semangat belajar!! caiyok!!

tapi pointer untuk sem2 ni tak tahu tahu lagi. harap2 okay lah. InshAllah.